Wired and Rewired, Say It Isn't So...

The quiet ride home
It gives me time to
Think it over...
Think it over...
I can't say that I'm proud of myself
I thought I was past this
I guess I'm not...
I guess I'm not...

She walked in
And it was all over
My heavy set resolve
The base pounded it into the wall
That empty feeling
Returned to the place it knows so well
And coldness...

Settles over my stomach
Burns through my temples

My eyes narrow
And my hands reach for another
I find them cold
And I know why
She has a partner in crime

I'm not handling this well...

My body grows stiff
Against my will
My chest invites air
But refuses to let it leave
And to think
I was about to throw 'bow

This is like having a staring contest with a set of painted eyes

Open...

It sends me falling back
The wall catches me

And then...

Insecure
Inadequate
Irrelevant

...Defeated

Constantly checking my back
For the inevitable
The proverbial knife
I knew someone would throw

I never guessed it would be him
I was so focused on her...
Dogs and dishes
Who would've thought
This could be the end of every cliche tale

It's not cliche at all...

Still so very real
And the fear
Not as deep as I thought...
Not as deep as I thought ...
Like I said
I thought I was past this
Now I know that I'm not...
Now I know that I'm not...

All I want is to find that place again
The safe haven
That lies between your outstretched arms
All I have to do is reach...

Can I trust you?
Can I trust that you'll catch me?

I was always told that I would be safe
And the day I turned around
The hand on the knife was my warrior
And even my back
Wasn't your target
You went straight for the heart
And hit it
Along with all the tendons
Surrounding it...
My band of defense

I thought I was past this...
I thought I was past this...
I thought I was past this...

I swore I was past this...
I swore I was past this...
I swore I was past this...

Just reach and fall.