Dum Dum De Dum Dum...

Ok, since some people like to complain about me not making any posts, and then complain about the posts I make, I guess I'll just talk about completely random things that make absolutely no sense.

So to start, my right hand is totally asleep from the last hour I spent leaning on it to surf the web. So now typing with it, is incredibly hard, and kinda feels funky.

-Funky is a funny word.-

Funky... funky....finicky...freaky...snazzy...hmmm.

So like in a week from today, not only does Nichole leave for VIRGINIA!! (hey I remembered the date) but I leave for a drive up half the country for no reason. I'm going to drive with my mom up to North Carolina, which is the halfway point for my Aunt Becky who is driving with her two children (who have been reported as brats) down from New Jersey for a couple o'weeks visit. Could you follow that sentence? This is the one married to the Nazi uncle who has weird ties to his viriginity. (My Aunt Becky's real name is Rebecca Lynn, which is a country song by Bryan Adams, or is it White, yeah, it's White.) SINGING TIME!!!!


Rebecca Lynn...grew up in Carolina....


That's all I remember of the song.


Wouldn't it be cool if for like a font, you could do like the music notes signs? I wouldn't really have any use for them, cause I can't read music, much less spell it, or write it (I guess), but in such cases that I start singing, it would be cool to surround my singing with music notes. Right?

Today hasn't been the best day in the world for me. I found out I have to give my doggy away before I go off to college, the real reason behind this I will only reveal to some. Anyhoo, I'm supposed to be finding a new home for her, and I have no idea how to go about that. She's not really a puppy, she's not really old, she has mild food aggression towards other dogs, and she has moderate aggression towards other dogs, unless she knows them, and ESPECIALLY if they have their anal glands remove...(poor Sara). If someone knows of anyone who would like a Black Lab, that I dearly love, and it pisses me off that I have to get rid of her, please contact me. I'd really perfer that she went with someone I knew, and I knew would take good care of her. And love her as much as I love her...ugh, I hate this. Stupid parents, poor baby.

Just a little bit ago, I got that thudding pain in my chest when a burst of nervousness about moving up to college slammed into me. Like sitting around talking to my mom, and sister, like stuff like that, I won't be able to do on a normal basis. And phones just aren't the same, you know? And then little things, like the fact that I'm going to be living ON MY OWN! With no curfew, no rules besides my own. Normally, any normal college student (teenager just sounded weird there) would be thrilled at this new sense of freedom. But for me, that's not freedom, but rather the sudden relinquishing of any real support or border that I have built my life inside. I think Providence stunted me a lot more that I thought it did. There you were just expected to be good, and being a rebel meant not tucking your shirt in. Now there's no dress code, no rule about shirts being tucked in, no rule about members of the opposite sex, and PDA, and when or when they can't come over to your dorm...and OH THE POSSIBILITES!

Someone ground me. And find a place for my baby.

Much love everyone!

So It's Time For A New Post...

i leave my house
and you know where i'm headed
i haven't had my fill for the day
driving the road
i've always rode
nothing new for me
but this time something different
at the top of the hill is where we collide
the violins at their climax
but no words
through the back of the window i see it
blankets
facemask
a glimpse of death?
or a struggle for life?
it depends on your point of view
fear runs through me
do i move?
the lights are fading out now
turning left
and so do i...
am i following it?
chasing it?
or am i just finding my own way?
my way ends up
a narrow path
hardly wide enough for two to pass
comfortably
(so how did you get down here?)
and a dirt road
bumpy
what lies at the end?
besides wrong choices
and beautiful accidents
why must history repeat itself?
hopefully this next mistake
will be just as beautiful...
this is not the road for me
so why must i visit?
what is it that brings me here?
love
and love is what sends me away
onto my next journey
no stops
straight road
curves are not for us
no more flashing lights
and i know what im made of
no fear
even though i dont know whats ahead of me
but i do know
death is not coming up behind me
instead your ahead
and im behind
soon to catch up im sure
just like my arrival
i always knew
i'd find you...
and here i am

Disclaimer

Well... I knew this day would come.

Due to some confusion about a recent post I published, I have been asked by many a people, only one of whom I actually care about the opinion of, to clear up some confusion. In the post entitled, "It's Times Like These", I was not talking about Wayne, as you can tell from the following post entitled "I Love Wayne". This post was merely a reference to a conversation I had with someone. There is nothing going on with Wayne and I, and no he's not talking to some girl in Texas. We're fine. Thank you for being concerned.

If there are any further confusions regarding this subject, please send them to idontgiveapoop@aol.aolsucks.com

Thank you,

I Love Wayne

Go to this website! It rocks! I recommend the quotation page....for a good laugh.

Click here: KCKELLYVILLE PHOTO GALLERIES

These pictures were from the concert we were at. It's nice to actually be able to see her face this time....J/k guys!

It's Times Like These

It's times like when you've just found out your boyfriend has been emailing some chick in Texas who supposedly has a boyfriend, who has been sending him pictures of herself, and he has been sending pictures of himself to her, that girls realize that dogs are what keep us sane. Good dog...

I Like This Song...

Artist: Stefani, Gwen

Album: Love. Angel. Music. Baby.

Year: 2004

Title: Cool

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends

After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same

After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been

I know we're cool
I know we're cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool

I Was Wrong... Phase 3 Is The GLORY!

It's 3:00 in the morning and I am super tired but also pumped at the same time. I just got back from a Kelly Clarkson concert that Katherine, Nichole and I were escorted to by our wonderful and thoughtful boyfriends who we love so much. Not only was this concert the shiznit (it's freaking KELLY CLARKSON!) but it was preceded by an amazing and fun-filled trip to the Birmingham Zoo, which I think half of the fun was actually getting to the zoo... way to go Phillip. Plus it will be quite hard to forget the enormous tiger who stretched over our heads, and the invisible wall we met in the rhino lair, and the itty, bitty pygmy's with the itty bitty faces, and itty bitty tongues, and real monkey fights.

Ahhh, but I must say that the best part of the night was the concert...thanks again guys. KELLY ROCKED! And so do you all for thinking all of it up, and keeping it a secret for so long, and I'm sorry it wasn't as much of a surprise as you would have liked it to have been. Darn those airwaves and their commercials!

I believe the night was capped off with the only thing that could have possibly gone wrong when we are for the first time without our parents or an adult chaperone on a road trip. Yeah, that's right. We blew a tire. But you know who came through and fixed it and put on the spare? That's right. It was our guys. I'm sooooo proud of you all. (I'd like to take this moment to personally thank the idiot for brighting us when he needed to merge anyways....learn how to drive stupidhead!)

Anyways, it has now been almost 30 minutes since Wayne has left my house and he should have been home by now. The worrying sets in... Oh! There he is...

Goodnight all. LOVE!

Much Like My Front Yard...

Recently it has come to my attention that for some reason a significant other doesn't ever respond to posts I make unless they are directed solely at him. Please, if I'm wrong then show me...

UPS Men Are The GLORY!

I GOT MY LAPTOP!!!!!!!

My Front Yard Doesn't Like Me

Bush: Hey Extension Cord!

Extension Cord: Yeah Bush?

Bush: Why don't you somehow wrap yourself around me and get real tangled.

Extension Cord: Why would I want to do that?

Bush: To make Brianna mad...duh.

Extension Cord: Oh! Okay. Won't she just pull on me until I come off you?

Bush: Nah... For some reason I have a really strong root system. And what's even better is that when she pulls hard enough, you can break in half and she'll have to walk 500ft to get to us to put you back together.

Extension Cord: Cool!!

Up up up we go...

Just a little heads up for everyone. This will be my email address when I head up to Alabama so this is where everyone can reach me. I will also have an P.O. box but I don't remember the number of the box, and mom threw away the piece of paper that had it on there. Anyhoo, I'll probably get that address to you guys later. I still have the leanbean17@aol.com address for right now, so you can continue to send stuff there, but you can also start sending it to the bama address. Again, the address is blsteeves@bama.ua.edu


Love you all!!


Brianna, Numero Cinco.

All American Rejects ROCK!!

Like I briefly mentioned in the last post, I was recently given the opportunity to listen to the new AAR cd, thank you Wayne. Anyway, I absolutely love this cd. I had reservations about it because I didn't think it was going to be like their old stuff. And it wasn't. But it was okay because it was so good. And yeah, they still can rock. I recommend this cd for all long distance traveling, it pumps you up for the long road ahead. Anyway, in this cd they did a lot of experimenting with new instruments and lost that drum machine thingy, so it sounds great and not like all the songs sound the same like on the first cd. I'm really excited sorry. Anyway, I highly recommend this cd and advise you to get it! Here's the lyrics to one of my most favorite songs.

"Change Your Mind"

Don't solve the problem
When danger is better
Far away where you stock them
In cages that tether

And all the bridges you've burned
Leave you trapped off at all sides
Now the tables do turn
And it's all gone
What's left for you?

And when the sky is falling
Don't look outside the window
Step back and hear
I'm calling
Give up, don't take the fast road
It's just your doubt that binds
Just drop those thoughts behind you
Now...now...
Change your mind
You let go too soon

Sit down , you're sinking
There's no one to watch you
Skip town, you're thinking
There's no one to stop you

And all the bridges you've burned
Leave you trapped off at all sides
Now the tables do turn
And it's all gone
What's left for you?

And when the sky is falling
Don't look outside the window
Step back and hear
I'm calling
Give up, don't take the fast road
It's just your doubt that binds you
Just drop those thoughts behind you
Now...now....
Change your mind
You let go too soon

Don't run away
Cause I'm feeling fine
It's better than your worst, your worst day
No words to say?
I'll give you mine
And pocket all the hurt
And just stay
Don't run away
It's better than your worst, your worst day

And when the sky is falling
Don't look outside the window
Stand back and hear
I'm calling
Give up, don't take the fast road

And when the sky is falling
Don't look outside the window
Step back and hear
I'm calling
Give up, don't take the fast road
It's just your doubt that binds you
Just drop those thoughts behind you
Now...now....
Change your mind
You let go too soon

Don't run away
Change your mind
You let go too soon

Don't run away
Change your mind
You let go too soon

Don't run away
I'll change your mind
You let go too soon

Don't run away
Change your mind


Long song I know but its great. Another really good song on the cd is called "Dance Inside" but no lyrics for that one, you'll have to listen to it on your own. Another is called "Move Along". Oh, what am I saying...they all rock, these three are just my favorites so far. Talk to everyone later....

LOVE!

Seniors

Hey everyone! Just got back from orientation up at ALABAMA! It was boring, and tedious, and ugh. Anyhoo, I was writing down some lyrics in my notebook from the new All American Rejects cd (which absolutely rocks by the way!) and I found an old something I wrote in math one day up at Provy. Aaah, the anguish of being a senior.... here it is.


Seniors

We're "rebellious"
Headed in the wrong direction
We're defiant and disrespectful
Towards anyone in authority
We are not to be trusted
And not even close to becoming "adults"
We are immature and children
We act the age of two

No

We're struggling
Lost as to where we are
We're angry and misunderstood
By everyone in authority
We cannot trust anyone
And still wanting to be a child
We are trying to be what you want us to be
And we act like the age that we are

So

Stop saying that we're rebellious
Help us find our direction
Lessen our anger and try to understand
We are respectful towards our authorities
We can be trusted, but we are
Lost between the ways of the adult
And the innocence we remember as a child
Allow us to know exactly how you want us to be
And we'll act like the adult that you are



So glad to finally be past that stage of my life. Oh well... onto the next.

Goodnight Everyone!!

I Love You ( I Promise)

blue and bright
dark and rational
we balance each other out
trapped in our situation
we make the most of us
to the point where neither wants to leave
(would we really want to?)
"i didn't know you were so close to me"
And you know i wish i were
closer


is two months too early?
were we predestined?
or did we choose?
i bet we'll never know
so let's not care
and live in the moment
"college" will come soon enough
but will you look?
see me first
with my eating habits
do you see me here?
your screwed up face
"oh! there you are"
i told you i wouldn't go far


do you realize?
i'd be there in a second
to feel you
see you
hear you
you make the senses tingle
and yet i'd drop my name
for you
would you pick me up?
lend me yours?
i want more than that
it may be a weird conversation
are you ready for this?
no doubts
no fears
commitment
support


i don't want a balance
i want to tilt this scale so bad
nothing can raise us from our grounding
i want to be stuck with you
(tilted)
and don't fight me
because i know you want to too
i could lay here forever
drowning in my own lack of production
if it meant never being out of reach
of your nervous hands


lets get something straight
i want to belong to you
but you don't own me
and vice versa
so you have your bottle rocket war
and i'll get my shadow
i'll be neurotic
and you'll like it
because baby
our best features balance us out